i want...

i want to make an impact. a huge impact.
is this something everyone thinks about?? am i weird??
i want to be remembered for something. for something meaningful. i want people to have good, genuine things to say about me when my time here is done. i want to have loved as much as i can possibly love. i want to touch people. i want to touch them in a way they will never forget. i want to touch them, through HIM. or...actually...i want HIM to touch them through ME. yea, that sounds better to me. i want to just be a vessle. oh man, do i ever. i want to be used up, completly used up by him.
i want to want this with ALL of my being...with more than just my heart or head alone. but both. my whole body. i want to want this so bad it consumes me. i want him to LITERALLY be ALL that i want and need. ever at all. i want to be content with Him, in Him. I want to see how blessed i am and how much he loves me EVERY day.
these are some of the things i want...really....
i just want to want them more.
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