Eulogy.

i'm doing a presentation today.
we where told to write our eulogy and/or our mission statement for our lives.
....WHAT?!?
so i started thinking about it and listening to some of my classmates presentations and everyone was saying they'd die when they where like 90 in thier sleep. now, yes...that's preferable...but not probable for all.
what if died right now?? i would still need a eulogy, correct?? i tried to think about what it would be if i had died a month ago...that wasn't very encouraging. i think it would go something like this...
"jamie king died yesterday after choking on the mashed potatoes she loved so much in the cafeteria of Trevecca Nazarene University. she had many people she called friends, but most of that was on a very superficial level. the friends she did have that where close enough to know her well say she was selfish and cruel and tended to only think of herself. she will be remembered for what she could have been. she had so much potential to be so much more than she was. if only she had not been so caught up in herself she could have done great things."
...not exactly what i was hoping for.
being a freshman in college i've learned alot.
i've learned i CAN actually survive away from my dad - being a daddy's girl i wasn't quite sure.
i've learned i can survive on pizza for a week straight - not that its a prefered way of living.
i've learned i have alot of faults. alot of things i need to figure out and work through. alot of things i need to fix, but can't fix on my own.
i've learned that i will hurt and be hurt. i will love and be loved. and i will have ample opportunity everyday to touch the people around me ina positive or negative way.
so i guess..if i where to fall over dead right now...my eulogy would be a little different.
it might say something like...
"jamie king was finally killed from too many hours of sitting in front of the computer. she had jsut started to learn what life and living was all about. she had more true friends than anyone would ever have expected. she loved and cared for them more than she ever imagined she could. she knew she had faults... a lot of them actually. but she was trying to make things better. she was striving daily to be more, do more, smile more, hug more, help more, and love more."
so maybe i'll keep getting progressivly better. maybe i'll actually achieve my life goals and dreams. maybe one day, if i live long enough to die of old age in my sleep...maybe my eulogy will be a good one.
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