But darling,

i have always held you high above the rest.
one step ahead.
you were always better in some way.
always deserving of more time, more effort, more chances, more thought, more forgivness.
more love.
more unreturned love.

but

are you?
what is it, exactly, that makes you so great?
the way you looked at me? the way you said my name? the way you respected me?
or maybe
the way you blew me off? the way you never took me seriously? the way my love wasn't enough?

you have always been my only exception.
my light.
my promise that all is not lost.
my rock.

but if you were so great....when you really weren't...
that one out there somewhere that really IS all i have him cracked up to be...
he will blow my ideas, expectations, rules, and only exception out of the water.